TOO FAR TO REACH 14

 TOO FAR TO REACH

CHAPTER 14

For the first time in my life I literally experienced the stop of time, I was frozen and slowly giving in. well, you might think “isn’t he your baby daddy? Are you not used to him by now” … no... for me that was the defining moment, I knew it there and then that Jeff had stolen a part of me. i could not resist his persuasion to go deeper but the wind stopped us unpleasantly.

“This jealous wind” he whispered as he pulled away and held my hand while pulling me along.

“Lets go..” he said.

“To where, look at this wind.. it looks like a storm is about to come … how about we just go back in the house and enjoy our nshima” I said.

Jeff pulled out his phone and booked an ulendo , just like an uber, ulendo arrived just where we were. It’s like the driver was literally a minute away.

“Where are we going?” I asked.

“I am stealing you” he said.

I loved how spontaneous he was, it’s almost like he knew me so well that he did all the right things. As we drove into town, I imagined a surprise proposal or even something like a romantic evening out together but you could just never know with Jeff. Something about holding his hand through that car drive made me feel so special, this felt right and this felt like home. Jeff had my heart, the guy had won me over and he was saying just about the right things that I needed him to say from telling the ulendo man that I was his wife and telling him that we were expecting twins. I was so overjoyed.

“We told aunty to cook” I said.

“I will still go and eat but you… I want to surprise you with something that you like so much… do you know what I am thinking?”

I giggled. “well remember pregnant women change  food preferences like crazy so maybe I may not even like what you are thinking but what is it?” I asked.

“Seafood…” 

I posed for a moment as I tried to reason whether or not I would stomach the sea food seeing that the fish smell was soon giving me challenges in my pregnancy. However, I liked Asian dishes and they involved a lot of sea food. 

“I see… well I think that will be nice but I am really craving ice cream” I said

Jeff nodded his head as he rubbed my hand “we will get whatever you want”

This all may have seemed like a fairytale but I was looking for something more, before it seemed like I would juggle all this and switch to single mom mode but now I needed more. I needed clarity and some sort of security in what I was doing… there was just no way that I was going to live my life without knowing whether or not this guy was here to stay. Yes we were playing the happy couple but to what end? When was all this going to change? My heart could not fathom the idea that he would maybe marry somebody else someday. I also didn’t want to think he stayed because of the pregnancy, I needed clarity and I needed a lot of it. Somehow, I noticed Jeff was reading my mind and he lifted my right hand to peck it. 

We pulled over at a very beautiful restaurant, it was so beautiful I couldn’t help but get my phone to take pictures; I quickly uploaded these on my instagram and made sure they were beautiful as could be. I noticed Jeff took a couple of pictures too but I was not preview to the fact that he was uploading these on his instagram as well. I was soon going to learn of this later but let share about what an amazing evening we had with so much food.. I ate like a whale while Jeff just nibbled insisting that he had nshima to catch at home. I noticed the evening would be coming to a close but Jeff made no mention of any serious intentions or what was going to happen now that he was not marrying Mosha. I was not going to live with him just calling me his wife until I give birth… I wanted something tangible before these babies came or I would just lose my mind wondering if he was going to really stay. I don’t think I was ready to handle the mockery that would come after him walking away upon me putting to bed. I needed to be sure this guy was just not here to ensure I had a safe delivery.